Just a "WHY"...?

A very small incident today raised a very big question in my mind.

Today I totally went out of my way to prevent an elderly lady from falling from her seat in the bus when the bus took a very rough turn. Even though there were many people standing nearby who could have helped her but didn't apparently because she did not look that well. I mean what is up with these people....seriously !!

The good thing is I felt really really good that I was successful. And, what I think was natures way of saying I did a good thing, was that another elderly lady, looking good(apparently), said to me next. She took the pain to reach me, making me unplug my earphone & said "what you did was good, nobody does this these days, I have seen one such accident recently where nobody helped her and she got hurt, thank you"...

I know its not a big deal and I have done nothing heroic ...it was not a matter of life and death, anybody could have done it(except nobody choose to do it)...still I felt good.

It feels good immediately if you do something good but WHY does it always happen that you feel bad only after a while if you do something bad ......when you are left with nothing else to do except  to regret it ...??

Falling Apart

People change, some for good, most for bad. I have seen both kind. People fall apart with time & its natural too.You expect it to happen, still there are people with whom you never expect it to happen. It hurts when it does. Even then you could bear but it hurts even more when nobody is ready to accept it because then you are still left with a crack in the door with the ray of hope beaming in. And you fear to confront them about this because you know when you try to confront them, they will make you at a fault. No matter even if you have tried up & until the hard limit of your self esteem to keep holding it from falling apart. You still haven't tried enough.

There is a greater fear that you may loose them (if you do anything more) and it will break you...you may never be able to get yourself up again...I am holding on to it...I don't want to let go of it...even if there is a part of me that knows one day I have to. But I am not ready yet. I am not strong enough for this. I will shatter into pieces. After all they are all I have got...... I never had it before. And I just had it for a small time and you want to take it away !!

I will hold on to it with all my hope. I will wait to see whether the door shuts or opens a whole new journey for me. Until then ...

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Fifty Shades Freed - Review

Fifty Shaded Freed is the third & last book in the Fifty Shades Trilogy by E L James. The story in this book have come a long way from the 1st one which lacked any presence of it. Since I started reading it with a very low expectation because of the previous books so it has surpassed my expectation by all means.All in all it turned out to be a good read so much so that I felt a pinch of disappointment as it dawn on me that i wont be reading any more of it - no more of Christian Grey & Anastasia (Steel) Grey.


The story starts with a hustle free wedding of Anastasia Steel & Christian Grey even though I was expecting some drama in this event. But soon you will find yourself reading about Mr. & Mrs. Grey's newly married life with some interesting twist & turns in the story. Christian Grey who once felt like a psycho( to me) become kind of an ideal husband. He is caring, loving, protective, humorous, passionate, supportive and at time over possessive who never let her wife forget how much he love her & how much she means to him. Also Anastasia is a character everybody would love who is everything a man would want in his wife. The best part is even though they seem to be ideal the story doesn't get boring in fact is quiet interesting.


Also your all time wish of knowing what happens after "happily ever after" is fulfilled towards the later part of the story in a very efficient & effective way which reaches to your heart.

Fifty Shades Darker - Review

Fifty Shades Darker is the second book in the Fifty Shades Trilogy by E L James. I started reading this book with a very negative expectation but it can be said its not bad - a midiocer (readable but not awesome). Though the actual theme of the book S** is still there (which should be) the "Story" starts becoming a true love story. The little bit of confusion you may have in your mind whether to love Christian Grey or hate him is resolved here. As a "Heartless Body" is now transformed in a "Heartful Soul" you can see love blossoming.

It keeps your mind engaged with various good & effective elements ranging from psycho ex-submissve, an unknown killer, Christian missing, plane crash, etc.
The story starts with a proposal as well as ends with a new one too. This is a book where you actually starts knowing the characters and not just their profile. Also some of the very intuitive questions about Christian & his past is answered here. In the end you may find yourself hoping for a happy ending & a normal long life for both of them (together or otherwise).

If you have read the 1st book then I would suggest you should go for it. Its worth a read.

India Changing: Baby girl shine of their eyes

The issue of Importance of Girl Child is a very well known cause to all. According to me this issue can be divided over four types of people.

1. Extremist: There are still innumerable people who don't want a girl child & will go to any extent to avoid having one. 
2. Also there are many people who don't mind having a girl child but they want atleast one boy child even if they have to break the "Hum do humare do" philosophy for that. 
3. Many also have the preference in having the 1st boy child, they are the people who will get disappointed(& even sad) if the 1st child is girl but will show fake happiness or atleast try to hide disappointment.
4. Optimistic: They are the people who want a child & love their child raising their love & respect above gender.

 I am not judging anybody, everybody have their opinion & preferences and I am totally fine with it but this does not go with the concept of "Equality of Gender". Today I am not gonna write about the issue, I am gonna write about the positive incidents that I have been exposed to recently related to this issue.

1. This particular friend of mine recently had a baby girl. I met her after few months since the baby was born. She told me that she & her husband together have decided that they will not have any more kids.Reason: In those few months they have realized that the baby needs a lot of care and attention for proper upbringing & since my friend is the only lady at home she don't want her attention to be distributed. On being asked that she can have a kid after few years when her kid is grown she said "even a grown kid needs attention just in a different way & when I have my daughter to fulfill my motherhood why do I need another child".
2. The daughter of my mother's friend had a daughter. She lives in Mumbai with her husband only. They decided they don't want any more kid. Reason: Life in a metropolitan is too expensive & they want to give their child everything as best as possible for them. So to give their best they want to raise their only daughter to the best of their ability.
3. One of my relative & also again the daughter of my mother's friend had a daughter recently & both of them distributed Rosogolla(Sweet) to dear one's which is traditionally a ceremony done in India when a boy is born (Out of happiness not a compulsion). Also they are throwing grand parties in celebration (Grand according to their financial ability). :)

As I said India is changing.I know its a long way to go but a step forward is a step less in that long way.

Life is just being 'Life'. Every Dog has his Day

Just so you know how this dog (er..bitch) has his (her) day, I would 1st tell you when he (...you get it) did not had his day. Just 1 month back my life was pretty much going into drain. How ? have to explain it in a little bit detail (bear with me). So i have left my last job in Feb(will tell you why in details someday) & i was confident that i don't want to work any more either i want to have my business (i know... what a joke) or I am going to be that typical Indian women staying at home doing household chores(again I know..what a joke). But life, doing nothing, can be pretty tough some times. Tough not because you feel miserable but because people around you make you miserable. As a result I now wanted to work but with my conditions.

Less working hour, more money, more free time ...

What is the 1st thing that comes to your mind ...let me guess....call center. Trust me it doesn't provide any of these as easy as it looks...I have tried. So after 1 week of training and 1 week of job, I left with Rs.100 in my hand. Why did I left this job ?? because i realized I am cheating on innocent people for my company because of which they have agreed to pay me so high. So why do I get Rs.100 ?because I sold 2 of their fake product for which it was the incentive. It took me a week into this job to realize its not what I do & I left immediately.

You may ask me why did not I tried authentic call center ? Just try, it will not satisfy either of my conditions. Once again I find myself  "वेला" with same miserable condition only its worse this time apparently I can't survive in any job and nobody can understand my reasoning even though its simple. According to them I am too lazy to work.

But then this dog (me) has his day. Suddenly I was flooded with job offers which I would like to take up. There was this 1 job I was sure i would like to take up so i accepted that. Now I have some free time left for me and I am a happy person. But the dilemma occurs when I get job offer(s) to take up in this free & I like both job offers. I am still thinking whether i want my free time or this job, and as a person moving without his will in a crowd but still he is responsible for his move, without me even knowing i took up 1 more job which consumes a considerable amount of my free time. Now I don't get enough sleep, enough rest, enough recreation. And for some inexpiable reasons & pressures I am not able to take decisions for myself & leave one of these.

To summaries I can say Life will ALWAYS be difficult sometime less sometime more. You may think under certain situation you will have control but you never will. Life is just being "Life". But all's well that ends well & it will always end well you just have to trust it.

As for me, I was finally able to leave this extra job in a way that everyone's concerned is happy. And me, yeah I am happy too because now I have 'the' job I want & nothing more ..... :) 

Fifty Shades of Grey - Review

I can describe it in two words - "Unnecessarily Hyped". There is nothing much to say about it. Its a total waste of my money & my time. Even if you can bear the loss of money & time, there is no climax to this story, Oh wait !! actually there is no story. Instead of watching P*** if you want to read about it then this is it for you.

The worst part is that you keep hanging to it as it gives you hope that at the end change will happen or a good old surprise would be waiting. But as soon as you read the last line you will find yourself cursing the author. Reason - now you are in a dilemma whether you want to purchase & read the next book hoping for that climax or you believe it will again crush all your hope as the 1st one.

I would rather not start the 1st of the trilogy & be in that dilemma.